The 80-year-old’s final letter titled “Thank you for taking care of your mother but I regretted giving birth you” has made many people unable to hold back their tears.
“Dear my sons,
Today is June 6, I am over 80 years old, this also means that I have lived 80 years already.
For such a long time, I gave birth to four children and raised eight grandchildren. That is, throughout my life, I have raised 12 people, both you and my grandchildren. So I thought I was old enough to understand my children.
Especially since a few years ago, after your father passed away, I clearly felt that the children became increasingly impatient with their mother. But at that moment, I really hoped that you could take me home, I wanted to live with you guys and I could do anything to be live with you.
I waited but two months passed without one of the children picking up me. My heart was cold as I knew that they would never have that intention.
Fortunately, you did not treat me badly. Each of you alternatively visited me for a week, so I no longer fear when the night falls again.
Actually, living up to this age, what is the most frightening? That is nothing but loneliness.
I know you spent a year and nine months looking after your mother, which is roughly equivalent to 630 days. As a mother, I thank you for that action.
But then, you guys meet me with scowl face. When you come, you do not say anything and when you go, you did not tell me either. It’s like you’re going to the hotel and go through a strange old woman.
I do not want to offend any of you. I do not eat any of your meals, nor wear your clothes and spend your money. But you always make me feel like visiting a mother like a debt, a burden to pay.
Even when your mother is not clear, every night, you leave home, no one stays with me. That made me feel lonely more than ever.
After your father passed away, you were with me for 1 year and 9 months. I am grateful for this, but for the rest of my life, I will go alone.
For more than two years, I have struggled with loneliness. On my the 80th birthday, you all came and wished I would live to a hundred years old! But then I just laughed and thought, living to a hundred years is useless.
And lately, my heart disease is getting worse. I do not say that to you and I do not know what to say. I hope the disease will bring me to see your father soon if so, I will be grateful for this life a lot.
A few days ago, I dreamed of your father. He looked at me and laughed and said, “You will go with me! You will not feel lonely anymore.”
When I woke up, I saw the stars outside the window, see the full moon and big. I dreamed of your father, dreaming that he would pick me up on such a beautiful night. Throughout my life, I was grateful for his love for his mother me and my thankfulness for your care over the past 630 days.
Mother’s heart disease is heavy every day so she understands she does not have much time left. So I wrote this letter because the fate of mother and child is not much.
My hair is gone, and I can swear that I really appreciate what you have done for me. In addition to this verse, I would like to add that “I am very sorry to give birth to you, if we have a future life, I do not want you to be my sons.”
But as a mother, I still hope that all four of you will be happy in the future, will not be abandoned by your eight children.
After this letter, I want to stop everything … ”
Finally, a few days later, it was discovered that the 80-year-old mother had departed her life with a very peaceful face on her bed, her hand was holding the only photo of her and her husband.